First him, now me

With some tender care T are on the mend. Slowly, a little each day, his symptoms have faded and even though he still coughs and sniffles a bit – he’s starting to resemble himself again. He doesn’t need as much tea or honey and he has started to eat with his usual appetite again. I’m relieved as always when he’s starting to recover and the worry in my heart melts away.

Unsurprisingly though, I’ve caught whatever T have had. Two days ago I started to feel the soreness in my throat and even if I still haven’t developed a cough like T has, I felt really bad yesterday. I had a fever, fever chills, stuffed nose and pain in most parts of my body, but particularity the lower part of my back. On top of that I also woke up with a unusually strong headache that later developed into an extremely painful migraine. The pain from the migraine struck me so hard I felt nauseous and almost threw up. I had to retire for the night before 19.00 (7 pm) and laid in the darkened room by myself, crying from the pain caused by just breathing.

This was caused (or so I think) by me going grocery shopping in the very beginning of the attack. Since we both had been home for a few days the need for fresh groceries was big. My choices were limited, either wait and hope that I would feel better today or go shopping with the migraine (asking T was out of the question, he still hadn’t recovered enough). Both options were bad but in the end I went yesterday despite the pain. It was stupid, I know, and the pain was so intense I thought I was about to pass out in the dairy section.

When I came home though, I fell to pieces in T’s arms and cried. He quickly unpacked the groceries and made sure I took my migraine strength painkillers and Zomig (nasal spray). He scolded me for not telling him how how much the pain had advanced before leaving for the store and then promptly made me go to bed. I was up for a few minutes some time later but the pain was still so strong I chose to go back to bed. About 3½ hours later I finally fell asleep.

The migraine are still there in the back of my head, I can feel it murmuring. I will probably need to go back to bed at some point during the day, long before my regular bedtime. I’m still tired, despite sleeping 14 hours. My throat is sore and I still have a fever. Here’s to hoping that it won’t be as bad as yesterday.


The migraine continues to wreak havoc in my head and it annoys me as it affects my streaming ability. It’s not something psychological now, I’m only hindered by this physical thing. I don’t like having to update my social medias with messages like “No stream tonight […]”, but what am I do to? I will have to start taking two doses (I’ve only taken one per day so far) per day of the nasal spray if this is going to keep up.

But I am also beginning on the hormonal gel again and I’m guessing that’s why the pain is returning. But my options are rated from bad to even worse. My three options are: 1) Stop with the hormonal treatment and go into menopause – which I was strictly told was not a good idea. 2) I can try the hormonal pills, that I have never tried before and don’t know how I’ll react to, but which also is a really bad idea since they adds to my already high risk of developing breast cancer. Or 3) I’ll have to live with this migraines until my body gets used to the hormonal gel.

I’m going with the last option. But I only have one thing to say: Bleh.

On with the heavy artillery – migraine edition

I was so happy yesterday and the day before that when my migraine seemed to be giving in and finally disperse. Then, yesterday, T and me were invited to a table top RPG-session (Role Playing Game) with our friends. Since the pain had mostly disappeared I thought nothing more of it and gladly went to our friend’s place. During the RPG-session though my migraine slowly began pulsating again. By the end of the session I was near tears as the pain had blossomed completely. I took yet another dose of the nasal spray and not even that gave complete respite, just a small window of an hour without the pain.

I got up early today and called the health care center, as was suggested to me by the nurse at the communication center (that I wrote about here). I told the nurse who returned my call from the health care center about my 8 day migraine streak, was asked a couple questions about the nature of the pain and was prompted to tell her of my symptoms, what painkillers I had been taking and what I strategies I had tried. She hummed softly while I spoke, typed something quickly over her keyboard and gave me an appointment to a doctor 1½ hour later.

Things went smooth with the doctor as well. She did the regular screening/examination to rule out brain damage and cerebral haemorrhage and sent me for a ECG with a nurse across the hall. When the nurse was done with me I met with the doctor again and she had already put my prescription into the computer system so she quickly went over what she had prescribed. I got the nasal spray (with 6 doses instead of the regular 2 you get with the over the counter box), prescription strength diclofenac and a beta-blocker to try and prevent the attacks coming at all. The last one was mainly because she understood that I need to take my hormone supplement but it will be hell if the migraines will continue like this.

I’m still to wait a few days before I start on the gel again. I need to let myself get a chance to recover from the pain and the poor sleep quality I’ve had in the past week. But I’m very thankful for things going so smoothly today. I’m hopeful that the pain will be gone soon.

Everyday update – Twitch, migraine and Cruising

Yesterday was a fun streaming day. Like with any job, you have your ups and downs. Some days are really slow with no viewers or no interaction with your audience no matter how hard you try. I’ve had a couple of these slow kind days for roughly a week now, but yesterday my chat was moving along nicely and I had several viewers at most times. I got hosted by two rather large (compared to me) channels and this gave me several new watchers and a bunch of new followers. It was mostly new viewers from my new clan but where they came from doesn’t really matters, I’m happy to have them all if they choose to follow me.

I’m doing better on the migraine front even if the pain hasn’t gone away completely. I didn’t take the second dose yesterday, didn’t feel that I needed it. But I’ve just taken the second dose since the pain was still active this morning after breakfast. Sometimes I do have a slight headache before breakfast so I felt it was best to wait with it until I’ve gotten some food into the system. I think I need visit the pharmacy and buy a second package and have it at home in case the migraine breaks out again or doesn’t want to go away after today’s dose. But right at this very moment I’m waiting for the effect to set in.

I’m feeling kind of stressed though, today is the famed Cruising day. During the day there’s a big motor show and swapping/selling of vintage cars. As the day progresses the cars leave the motor show and slowly drives through the city to show off their prized pearls. Most of the town are on their feet to look at the cars cruising through the city center and it’s overall a very festive event with food and beer at every establishment. Later on the party moves out to the streets and the sidewalks are littered with drunken party goers.

Now, I’m not the one to go to this kind of event, be it the one in the day or the one at night, but I do take some precautions like moving our car to a less public area earlier in the day as we live along the cruising route (we can view the cars from our kitchen window, which we often do.. for about 5 minutes and then we’ve had our fill). I also make sure I have done all my chores long before the vintage cars leave the motor show to be able to stay away from the crowds as much as possible. Navigating among this kind of crowd is usually not that hard, it’s mostly just tedious and tiresome.

Follow-up from yesterday

Before 9 o’clock this morning I had spoken to two nurses and one doctor. It wasn’t my regular doctor (the surgeon) but another of her colleagues that called me. But speaking with the first nurse, who had no clue who I was or what my case entailed was mostly enervating (I mean, it’s not like there’s a big fat journal on me in their systems >:| ). I had to repeat my data and info three times before she even began to understand why I needed to speak to a doctor on that specific ward. She suggested that I contact a GP instead of someone from the gynecological ward since it was a headache I had and that’s not something that was normally handled by a gynecologist/surgeon.

I spent 35 minutes coxing this woman to leave the nurse over at the surgeons office a notice that I wanted them to contact me and I’m impressed with myself for not loosing it as my migraine only got worse during this call. If I could have, I would have contacted the surgeons office directly, but since it’s summer and they’re low on personnel, all the calls are handled through this communication center for the whole region.

The second nurse was a nurse from the actual ward and even if she didn’t know all the details from my case, she knew enough to alert the doctor in charge that I needed to get in contact with them before the end of the day. The doctor called me 45 minutes later. Once I’ve gotten hold of the doctor I was given clear directives (hallelujah!) right of the bat as she knew who I was, why I was calling, that I had been in contact with 1177 yesterday and that I was to call if the migraine didn’t go away during the night.

I’m to stop using the gel for a week or so, at least until the migraine goes away, and then try them out again. If the migraine comes back I’m to stop using the gel completely and try another form of the drug, a pill this time. The doctor also informed me that she had contacted the manufacturer of the patches and while the production is completely stopped now, the issue should be solved in a few months. Hopefully I’ll be able to go back to the patches at the end of the year.

I was also given counselling on how to handle the migraines and we decided on a nasal spray that wouldn’t put as much strain on my already overloaded system but still help me with the pain. I’ve taken the first dose of the nasal spray just before writing this and it says on the packaging that I should feel the effect within the first 15 minutes. If the pain persists I can take a second dose approx. 2 hours after the first one.

Writing this has taken more then 15 minutes and it seems like the pain has gone away somewhat. I don’t know if it is completely gone, but looking at the screen and listening to soft music doesn’t hurt as much any more. My nausea also seems to be gone, which is a huge relief. Maybe I don’t have to go full vampire today and lay in a darkened room hissing each time a beam of light enters the room.

To menopause or not – part 2

On Monday this week I starting taking the new hormone supplement that I wrote about earlier. I have been using the hormone patches since my operation in 2015 but because they have stopped manufacturing it, I was prescribed another brand and switched from patches to a gel I was supposed to spread on my thigh every day. I didn’t give it a second thought when I, late on Tuesday, got a splitting headache. I have had problems with migraines since my early teens, often around the time I had my periods, but in later years the migraines have been scarce for a number of reasons.

But, I went to bed and woke up with the same headache yesterday and today. When I was caving in to the pain and thought I’d go to the pharmacy and get some heavy duty painkillers my eyes landed on the box with the hormone gel in it. I did read the leaflet that comes with the package before I took it but hadn’t connected the headache as a side effect of starting on a new drug. I quickly went through the list of side effects and read that I immediately should stop taking the drug and contact a doctor if I experienced intense headaches or migraine.

Since this hadn’t come to my attention until late in the afternoon today I was unsure just how quickly I could get hold of the doctor who prescribed it or even a nurse from the surgeons office. Instead I called the number for nationwide medical counseling (1177) to get advice and an professional opinion if I needed to rush to the hospital or not. The nurse at 1177 got hold of a nurse at the surgeons and it was decided that I was to call them directly, early tomorrow morning. But if I felt extremely woozy, passed out or collapsed in combination with throwing up or getting an even worse headache then the one I experienced now, it was important that we call an ambulance right away.

I’m somewhat worried, of course, who wouldn’t be? My head hurts something bad, no pain killers seem to work and I need to be conscious of how I’m feeling until I get hold of the surgeon tomorrow. I hope there’s no more to it then that I need to stop taking the gel to get rid of the problem. But if the gel doesn’t work, I have extremely limited options as to how I’m going to keep my menopause at bay. Hopefully my surgeon still have some aces up her sleeve because it seems like I’m running out of options here.