#LevelWithACause for TakeThis


At the start of next Diablo 3 season many from my clan Rift will be raising money for the non-profit charity TakeThis.

TakeThis, Inc. seeks to inform our community about mental health issues, to provide education about mental disorders and mental illness prevention, and to reduce the stigma of mental illness. – Source

Since I too suffer from a mental disorder this event felt very close to my heart. Be sure to visit our charity homepage #LevelWithACause on the 9th and 10th of November to help us help others!

(Don’t Fear) The Unfollow

I recently came across an interesting article about not fearing unfollows. It’s from 2015, but it still had great value to me because I’ve stepped the exact mindset they describe a number of times. When I see that I’ve lost a follower or two I always feel discouraged and wonder what I did wrong, if I could have done something different, if I wasn’t funny or interesting enough to keep their interest or something along those lines. The big error I, and probably many others, do is to take it personally. There are only one occasion that I know of, for sure, that the person left because of something I did.

I’ve been reading a lot of articles since April when I began streaming and while many differ in their tips and opinions on best practises, the one thing everyone agrees on is being persistent and consistent. I somewhat knew about the consistent part even before I began but it have also become abundantly clear that being persistent is at least as important as being consistent. But it is hard, of course it is. When you’re on your fourth day without any interaction with chat and your viewer count seem to have frozen on 0 or 1, you start wondering if it something wrong with you personally as you refresh the page for the 27th time this stream (even though the stats on the dashboard refreshes itself automatically). But then there it is, the thing that breaks the dry spell and keeps you from giving up. Just like they say in the article, as long as you have your core audience with you, just keep doing what you do.

But then there’s that one individual that I’m both sad and puzzled about. The person was one of the first ones that followed me and soon also put me on auto-host. Their channel was always the bigger one but that didn’t seem to matter. But recently the person both unfollowed and stopped hosting me. We hadn’t spoken for a while but I didn’t think that was a problem. I guess I can send a whisper and ask why this is, but at the same time.. it doesn’t feel right. Instead I’m trying to be grateful for the time they chose to follow and host me, it helped me out a lot in the very beginning.

Handling Twitch unfollows and mass follows

One thing that has been consistently hard for me to tackle is when I loose followers. It’s hard not to take it personally and I really don’t feel comfortable questioning people as to why they chose to unfollow me. A couple of days ago though I was notified that some of my followers had been auto-unfollowed from my channel and was also told they had to take quite a few steps so they could re-follow me (like clearing their web browser history, reload the page and whatnot) since the follow button still showed that they were following me. I know this has been a thing on YouTube where you can sometimes be unfollowed from a channel even if you don’t actively go in to a profile to unfollow that particular person but then at least it was easy for the follower to re-follow. After some time though some of them pop into the follower list again, at the same place as they where before they disappeared, seemingly without them doing anything. I have no idea what’s up with that.

But it was with a sullen mood that I fired up the stream today (streamed early since we’re off to a party this evening). No of the persons I usually play with have been online in days so silently I sighed to myself as I started the Battle.net launcher to boot up Diablo 3, wondering if I wasn’t better off just playing something else. About 2 hours into the stream I got a random host from GamingCreations for 75 (!) viewers. She had seen that I was playing hardcore as well and wanted to spread some HC-players love by hosting my channel and help me along. For the next 1½ hours the new followers kept trickling in and by the time it was time to log off I had gotten a whopping 36 followers, pushing me over a hundred.

I’m very excited for all the new faces and I hope that many choose to stay, even if I am guessing that I will loose quite a few of them over time. I’m also quite overwhelmed, 75 viewers was even more then the total of followers that I had when I got hosted and for a while my channel was alive with the buzz of a big amount of people gathered in the same space. The mass slowly dissolved but my viewer count still showed 20 watchers for a long time. And going over a 100 followers like that? Consistency is king, like T told me when I hit my first 10 followers. It might be a bit premature, but we’re heading out to a restaurant in town to celebrate my 100+ followers.

I’d like to do something special for all my new followers, like a giveaway, an extra long stream or something similar. But I don’t have any ideas on what would be suitable..


The migraine continues to wreak havoc in my head and it annoys me as it affects my streaming ability. It’s not something psychological now, I’m only hindered by this physical thing. I don’t like having to update my social medias with messages like “No stream tonight […]”, but what am I do to? I will have to start taking two doses (I’ve only taken one per day so far) per day of the nasal spray if this is going to keep up.

But I am also beginning on the hormonal gel again and I’m guessing that’s why the pain is returning. But my options are rated from bad to even worse. My three options are: 1) Stop with the hormonal treatment and go into menopause – which I was strictly told was not a good idea. 2) I can try the hormonal pills, that I have never tried before and don’t know how I’ll react to, but which also is a really bad idea since they adds to my already high risk of developing breast cancer. Or 3) I’ll have to live with this migraines until my body gets used to the hormonal gel.

I’m going with the last option. But I only have one thing to say: Bleh.

Custom graphics for Twitch

Just when I think I’m close to getting done with my Twitch channel, I find something else to dive into. This time it’s custom emotes for my chat, banners and possibly a new portrait to unite all the social medias to my Twitch channel. Just as with my name, I’m pondering what’s best to go with for graphics to my channels. I’ve made decisions like these before, but so far I’ve gotten away with going with the free options.

I like the chibi art style of most things so a portrait with chibi elements to it is something I think I’ll like. I also think I’d like some kind of animals for my emoji’s and cats is a favourite animal of mine. But cats and dogs are over represented so I don’t think that’s a good choice. I do love red pandas but have also come to like snakes (sneks!) and fruit bats. Neither of those are used very often, which is a shame because they can be really cute if drawn as such. Now, I don’t have to contain myself to only one animal in the long run. I specifically want a hen in a tie eventually and also some kind of resting bitch face emoji as well.

But while this takes time and some careful consideration, actually getting hold of a digital artist that can do this for me is even harder. Most of the artists I’ve looked at don’t take any more commissions as they have gotten an influx of people wanting custom emoji’s since the release of Twitch’s affiliate program. It’s a luxury problem to have for sure, but it still puts me in a hard position. This isn’t the buyers market at the moment, the artist seem to be able to take their pick and leave the ones they don’t want to do.

Adding more time to the schedule

I’m trying to add more streaming time to my schedule and I’m testing the waters this week to see what times might suit me the best. I’ve been doing the evening streams and I have tried to keep a game rotation of the games that my viewers seem to like the most. But, like I’ve said in an earlier post, Diablo 3 (D3) is the game that single handedly draws the biggest audience to my channel. A lot of my watchers also play D3 themselves, which of course means that most of them are only interested in seeing me play that particular game.

But I have been reluctant to skip all the other games and dedicate my whole channel to a single game. Don’t get me wrong, I’m impressed with the channels that can pull that off, but I know myself well enough to realize that if I don’t have a game rotation I will get sick and tired of just playing that one game. I am a variety gamer at the my very core and the genre is secondary. I play games on the basis of them being interesting enough to peak my curiosity and wanting to play it, even if I do have genres I know I’m less interested in like first person shooters (FPS) and horror games.

So my goal with adding time to my streaming schedule is grounded in the idea that I want to give D3 more time on the air but not at the expense of all the other games. The best solution I could come up with was to give D3 the majority of the evening streams (as that is the busiest time) and play other games during early afternoon streams. That way everyone have something to watch as I need to be live on the evenings with D3 to interact with my viewers but not necessarily with games such as Stardew Valley or Recettear. The backlog of past streams carries quite a lot of my past sessions so it’s easy to go back if they wish to see a specific game.

I’m thinking of putting the afternoon stream somewhere between 13 to 17 once autumn rolls around and all the people with regular jobs return from their vacations but for now I’ve streamed 14 to 18 instead. I hope it works out fine and that this is something I can commit to. It would mean I’m doing a regular 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week thing.. and that is something I know I can’t do on a regular job due to my depression and anxiety. But I wont celebrate until I’ve thoroughly tried it out and done a serious evaluation of the situation.

Everyday update – Twitch, migraine and Cruising

Yesterday was a fun streaming day. Like with any job, you have your ups and downs. Some days are really slow with no viewers or no interaction with your audience no matter how hard you try. I’ve had a couple of these slow kind days for roughly a week now, but yesterday my chat was moving along nicely and I had several viewers at most times. I got hosted by two rather large (compared to me) channels and this gave me several new watchers and a bunch of new followers. It was mostly new viewers from my new clan but where they came from doesn’t really matters, I’m happy to have them all if they choose to follow me.

I’m doing better on the migraine front even if the pain hasn’t gone away completely. I didn’t take the second dose yesterday, didn’t feel that I needed it. But I’ve just taken the second dose since the pain was still active this morning after breakfast. Sometimes I do have a slight headache before breakfast so I felt it was best to wait with it until I’ve gotten some food into the system. I think I need visit the pharmacy and buy a second package and have it at home in case the migraine breaks out again or doesn’t want to go away after today’s dose. But right at this very moment I’m waiting for the effect to set in.

I’m feeling kind of stressed though, today is the famed Cruising day. During the day there’s a big motor show and swapping/selling of vintage cars. As the day progresses the cars leave the motor show and slowly drives through the city to show off their prized pearls. Most of the town are on their feet to look at the cars cruising through the city center and it’s overall a very festive event with food and beer at every establishment. Later on the party moves out to the streets and the sidewalks are littered with drunken party goers.

Now, I’m not the one to go to this kind of event, be it the one in the day or the one at night, but I do take some precautions like moving our car to a less public area earlier in the day as we live along the cruising route (we can view the cars from our kitchen window, which we often do.. for about 5 minutes and then we’ve had our fill). I also make sure I have done all my chores long before the vintage cars leave the motor show to be able to stay away from the crowds as much as possible. Navigating among this kind of crowd is usually not that hard, it’s mostly just tedious and tiresome.